The Journey called Life......

Dear Diary,

       

It all began at the last day of school.A bag full of mixed feelings..excited about exploring the new world ahead,on the other hand sad about saying Goodbyes.As I look back on all that’s happened-growing up together,laughing out loud,crying quietly yet expecting our friends to hear it,there were times dreaming together what we would do after school,some would say ‘I want to be a fashion designer,some doctors,or may be some engineers’,but we never knew what actually future holds for us.The past may be gone forever some will keep in touch and some wont,but that dsnt stop life..it goes on..But yet at that moment a question superficially arise ’why does it take a minute to say hello and forever to say goodbye?’But none has the answer to it…

Life moved on to second phase,a new life in a new city,everyone’s beloved ‘Amar Kolkata’.Its like a hungry lion waiting patiently to hunt the gazelle.And it the only chance the gazelle has of its life to just run and run till it never ends..For a smalltown girl like me,my life was somewhat this when I was first sent to this big city.Life here was fast and one had to keep equal pace with it or you would be left behind.Here friends are family and Relatives mere acquaintance.The younger generation are busy either with colleges or drinking coffee with their partners,the middle aged trying to make themselves a good fortune,whereas the old group sitting in a tea stall talking about politics.Everyone’s busy with own lives,nobody has time to look back.Even in this hustle and bustle of people and buses,I found somewhat a slow creature like me!A person who promises to go as slow as I am,walk hand in hand with me,to comfort me when I am blue,and above all love me forever..and soon there was a  beautiful Love story slowly knitting it's web of dreams...

Suddenly life was different(in a good way,of course!)..I began to feel love in nearly every small thing,young baby crying dint annoy me(then),when 3a.m. coffee seemed more interesting than reading a book.Life seemed a lot easier then,when there was someone I knew I would go back to at the end of the day no matter how hard the day would be,someone to talk to or discuss even the smallest little thing,knowing that person would stand by me even when I am all messed up!But as we all know nothing is permanent,times ticking after every Sunday theres Monday,after 20 theres 21,after every year theres another blah..blah..so was my life!One never gets all that’s wanted,isn’t it?Life has its own way of giving.Life is said to be full of ups and downs,I just had my ups and now it was time to face the downs.

Moved on to third phase,I had a break up!I was no different I too cried and soaked my pillows many nights,trying out ways to get him back,trying to get him to talk to me and sort it out.But at that point its just a phase that every girl faces after heart break.Why Breakups are so tough to deal with?For some of them it may be a simple break up,and its adviced the solution to a breakup is another man.But is it so simple?So easy enough to let go…when you already have planned a beautiful future with that person!It isn’t as simple as it seems when it comes to “True Love”.Can A be ever replaced by B(in alphabets)?Can Sun be replaced by Moon?No it cant….everything and everyone has there own place and it cant be changed!Same is with your heart,but we choose not to think that way!

Friends were real support to me,but even though I feel I am nothing but all alone in the midst of everything.3 years I took to get myself back on the track of life,yet there is a gap which I cant just fill up.Even though I try to but it seems my tries are not good enough..

College is over and life gets more serious,theres more to than just thinking about my last break up.Its still a part of life but theres more to my life..I am all grown up,and in no time from twenties I will be in my thirties and so on…This is the time I have to work upon,this is the time when I will be what I actually wanted to be,I have to discover what I really want in life..There are people who expect a lot from me,and its time to stand upto their expectations.Life will give good as well as bad in equal share,and one has to take up both and live with it throughout..If it gives us reason to cry,then it also give us people who make us happy..its just we have to find out what we really want and in what ways..I have begun my journey not even half the way,yet to taste more adventure and have fun...