Just Rambling!

Hello Readers!

I hope you guys are doing well.I was a little on pins and needles since morning whether as to write this post or not,but then when its about writing something,anything at all,I simply cant withhold it,so here I'm writing on what I did last week.

My life is all about actually,the things I always do is Eating. Listening. Reading. Watching.

So this post is going to be basically on that.On what I watched. read. listened. ate.

First lets start with Reads:

Last week I read not one but two books.One I had been reading on and off,but finally finished it on Monday and then the other,read it at a stretch.

Mutation by Robin Cook:He writes one of the best medical thriller.And I've been reading since school days,yet I haven't covered the entire collection though.

Let me tell you little whats Mutation is based on,its about the ethics of genetic engineering.It brings up the benefits,risks and consequences.This book,I think one of the best I came across.So do read it,and I suppose you'll like it too.

The second one that I had been reading on and off was,Tell Me Your Dreams by Sidney Sheldon.And this one is based on MPD (Multiple Personality Disorder).Its a thriller too,and it also has a point,showcasing how child abuse and molestation can lead to affecting the mind of the victim.

I loved both the books,do read them,and now I'm waiting for my sister to get back so that I can get hold of Inferno by Dan Brown,that's gonna be the next.I'm dying to read it *winks*

Listened to:Other than my mom's voice,scolding me for doing 'this' and not doing 'that',I did add three tracks to my iPod.

One I Found You by The Wanted and 100 Years by Five For Fighting and Be Yourself by Audioslave.

Now lets go to the films that I've watched.I love watching films,give me anything and I'll watch it.Some months back I used to go to the theater and watch first day's shows or even on first week,but now,that no longer happen due to classes and a tiresome schedule.So I watch it at home,and I get them either on T.V or may be beg,borrow or blackmail from friends.

Its like I could leave my 'would be husband' but not films...ha ha ha ha...And I so crazily live it.On someday I've even seen 3 films back to back.

I don't go by critics and decide if I must watch a particular film or not,I watch it myself and then criticize it,in my own way and unless you watch a film you'll have nothing to criticize about,right?

Okay chuck it,that's just how I feel.

Out of all,I'm going to name three,the first one is an animated film,Rise of The Guardians.While I watched the film I went on being the kid,believing on Santa Claus,Easter Bunny,Tooth fairy,Frost..Really a good film specially the children gonna love it.It has a lesson too,"Never Stop Believing".

The other two were Zero Dark Thirty by Kathryn Bigelow and Body of Lies by Ridley Scott.I think many of you have already seen them,this is for the ones who haven't yet.The former one is based on manhunt for Al Qaeda leader Osama bin Laden,and the latter one a spy film,starring Leonardo DiCaprio(one of my fav),Russell Crowe and Mark Strong.It was a pleasure to see such great actors share screen together.

Must watch!

Last but not the least,my favorite food pick was a pound of Red Velvet Cake.Now I know why they call it devil's food!

Once you taste it,I bet you gonna fall in love with it,just like me wanting to eat more and more,simply cant get enough of it to satisfy your taste buds.

Its awesome...!

Just thought I could share it with you guys.I wouldn't be posting in for sometime,not because of content,instead I have examination coming up,will be busy with prep and concentrating wholly on it.So will be taking off for a while,but there are many old stuff already in here,if you haven't read them yet,do check back and leave in your comments.

I will catch up as soon as possible.

Love & Luck

-Ankita.

One For All...

He will fly to the forbidden land,

The moment where destiny doubts itself,

Prediction fail on their homecoming,

Yet I stand here and wave at him,

Tears run down when I kiss,Goodbye!

I'm not afraid,instead I feel proud,

Born for this to do his part,

Cause I love the man in the blue shirt,

Unselfishly,left me to get closer to his first love,

To defend for her and protect her dignity,

So that my country people can sleep in peace,

Be safe and sound with a smile on face,

Every morning so many heart skip their beat,

Await for the news with fingers crossed,

Believing they are alive, 

Not litter'd on the ground,

He writes to me,that's it so cold out there,

Let the thought of me warm you then dear,

You are the Son,you are my hero,

Without sacrifice,the cause would be lost,

But you carried onward,no matter the cost,

Wives and children keeps hope,

For a next happy family gathering,

But some come in wooden boxes,

Covered by our national cloth,

Those searching eyes never lose faith,

Even if the name is on the list of death,

And those who survive is forever scarred,

So emotionally and physically marred,

Will it ever end? Will this world find solace?

How hard is it to wish for a world,

Where all countries will unite together,

And where humanity will be one?

We wish for us to have a better place,

Children and wives will no longer cry,

Where the sons will rise not to fight,

But to spread peace,love and success!

When Rain Pours Down!

The sky darkens into a mass of ash and bluish grey,

As showers pour from the clouds high,

The row'd palm trees,heave and sway,

Water in the pond ripple away,

Frogs are out croaking joyfully,

Little drops glide down the lotus leaf,

Birds sit on the branches still,

Lie on the landscape green,

With shadows brown between,

Wet road runs through the field,

And up and down people go,

Dried clothes hang on the clothesline,

Red chilies moist in the front-yard,

Meadows spring back to life,

And silver white the river gleams,

Far away whistle of the train fades,

Drowning at the calls of the dove,

Quenching the thirst on a bough high,

Smell of mud filling the room,

Crickets critter all day long,

Music to slumbering ears,

And banish the thoughts of day,

The yellow bird sings in their tree,

Making my heart dance with glee,

Little breeze dusk and shriven,

A ray of light spread like golden bars,

Flowers sprouting from the rocks,

I can feel the stubbornness of nature,

Enjoying the life around me,

Fragrance of fresh mango flowers,

New saplings moist and green,

People back to usual work,

Drying the pickle in backyard,

Life starts on full flow,

Phasing a healing scene,

Gurgling water flow from the ditch,

The buffaloes basking in the field,

A refreshing look in every eye,

Mystic Minstrel sing out loud,

The trees stand quiet and still,

Kids play with delight,

Wishing for the seasonal rain,

To stop by again!

Dream / Reality ?

Sitting by the window,my mind goes wandering,
Letting my thoughts bleed onto the faded pages,
Writing with an invisible ink and words of healing,
Deep within holding onto the last pieces,
Hope and Faith leads my way,
Even when the sand of memories are slipping away,
Searching for the ray of light in the darkest corners,
Longing to turn my nightmares into beautiful dream,
Blinded by lies and unspeakable pain,
Darkness ensuing,losing the dawn to the dusk,
Silence creeps up the walls of my mind,
Trying to invade my melancholy state,
What is it I'm losing? That I'm trying so hard to keep,
Why does it feel like I'm all alone?
Alone! Standing on a lonely bridge,
And its only crickets and the sound of stream accompanying,
Moon and stars play hide and seek with the fluffy clouds,
I'm losing my sight in the dark night rain,
No one is looking for me,I feel so lost,
No bread crumbs;no footprints on the ground
My mind numb,and my body feels weak
I want someone to hold my hand and lead my way
Back to my warm room,where I sit by the window
Caressing me and washing away the pain
Searching for the rabbit hole to sneak out from this horrid world,
Just then a faint voice calling out my name,
And I walk back from dream world to reality,
'Just a bad dream',I tell myself,
Its all my curious heart and mind playing tricks,
Trying to figure out whats better 'The Dream' or 'The Reality',
Gazing one last time,my emotions recollect in the sudden tranquility,
Those unsaid words which is just left behind in the dark reality/dream!

P.S Dedicated to Arjun Singh Chhabra....

From Paris With Love!

Chapter Six

Finale

She left her mind wander idly for a moment,expecting sleep to take over her.But after a few minutes,she found herself more alert,anxiety creeping back into her stomach,twisting it into uncomfortable positions.

Though she had easily sneaked back into the room and in her bed without disturbing anyone,while the other two were pretty wasted and asleep,but she couldn't simply get to sleep.

When things on the outside were silent,it was a whole different picture on the inside.The little demons in her head noisily played tricks and juggling with thoughts,creating a havoc inside.As a result even turning to sides dint seem to help.

The words of Matt kept ringing in her ears,'I hope you get,what you are looking for!',what did he mean by that? What was I actually looking for? And why did I behave in such a manner? 

Questions filled her head one after the other and then a thought of someone long lost in the past suddenly began to resurface.And there was a sudden contraction in her heart,as if someone had just squeezed it.

All those hidden feeling and emotions started to fill her up,as though it had been entangled for a long time and just waiting to tear free and she realized that she hadn't forgotten anything,she had been lying to herself all this while masking her true feelings.And she was back to square one,being that girl cooped up in her room at Hampton,succumbed to her pain,just waiting for him to show up.

"Hey, Sleeping Beauty! wake up" Camilla's serene voice called out tugged slowing at her shoulder.

Her eyes flew open and she lay shivering and grasping in her warm bed for several minutes,trying to break free of the dream.

"Hey, you Okay?" Camilla stood beside her bed a little shocked at the way she had suddenly woken up.

"Yes, I'm fine!" Raquel assured rubbing the beads of sweat on her forehead.

"Breakfast is ready! Come soon!" and saying this Camilla left the room.

She sat still for another moment,the sky outside her window had turned gray and then pale pink while she waited for her heart to slow.

Who knew that a chain of unprecedented events has already began to unfold and nobody knew where would it end!

After getting dressed she headed to the kitchen where Ruby and Camilla had just finished setting the table for breakfast.

"Hey, pancakes,today!" Ruby chirped but Raquel seemed to not notice or take any heed to it.

While the other too chatted,Raquel seemed too keyed up to have any interest in eating.She fiddled with her fork and was drowned in some deep thought.They both watched her but dint dare to ask anything,not at least at that moment.

The next couple of days,it was the same everyday,and it took troll on her,always drooped and worried.She dint talk much and whenever they planned to go out,she would deny making up some health issues excuses.

She had even stopped going to office and her condition seemed to get perpetual.And that's when the two thought it was enough of her queer and outlandish behavior and all of these needed to be resolved,instantly.

"Whats the matter with you?" Ruby asked.

"Nothing,I'm fine!" she mumbled.

"No,you are not! And who are you trying to fool here?" Camilla snapped.

To this Raquel broke down in sobs and the two consoled her.

"Until you let us in,and tell us whats bothering you,how will we know?" Camilla said caressing her head on her lap.

Raquel disclosed everything about Darryl,about the night with Matt,and how she had realized it was same all along.About he being in Paris and that she missed him.

"We gonna find a way out,I promise!" Camilla assured.

For the next some days they did everything to cheer her up,but they understood the matter was way too serious than it had seemed.Her situation was getting more and more distressed with every passing days.

On one clear weather evening,their usual outing at the Champ de Mars park.It was usually packed with people having picnic,kids running around,playing while the trio sat at one side,and Camilla played her guitar,singing in her melodious voice trying to cheer up her glum mood.

Raquel quietly listened to Camilla sing,while Ruby talking non stop on the other side and watching a little girl let go off,when she suddenly shrieked "Balloons!"

Camilla and Ruby both turned to look at her and asked "What?" in union.

"Yes! balloons!" and she explained how it was a connection.And then they came up with a brilliant plan.But she wasn't sure if her imminent choice would really work.But it was the only way to find someone in this vast Paris without knowing anything other than the name!

On their way home they had stopped at The Lovers Bridge,and attached a padlock with 'Darryl' written on it,to the bridge and threw the key into the river.

"Its a symbol for Eternal Love! We both wish it for you. You'll get him!" Camilla assured and the three hugged and cried.Their bond of friendship was beyond words and in days to come it was going to get even stronger.

That night Ruby squawked trying to brighten up everyone's mood,"How about lingerie,instead of balloons? I bet why only Darry Boy,rest all the Darry's from the entire Paris would come running!" she giggled "I could arrange enough girls to pull this stunt! Should I?" and winked.

And the trio burst out into laughter.

And the next couple days of the week passed in visiting every possible place in Paris and letting go of balloons with the hope of him noticing it.

Three days had passed with no result and Raquel finally was beginning to give up on her hope.

"Whom were we kidding Camilla? Finding him with balloon,it is beyond the realms of possibility! Maybe he is no more here to see it" grimacing at her.

"Never doubt your instincts.Believe in what you feel inside,watching that little girl at the park wasn't just mere coincidence,it was destiny's play to show you a way to get him.True Love never fail! You got to keep hope.We are here for you." Camilla conveyed.

And she conceded with it.When on this end she was growing impatient,on the other a guy had been watching,everyday the balloons afloat and tried to track down the trail.

'It can't be her' he thought,but yet his curiosity got the better of him and he was searching for the person who had been doing this.One of these day he was nearly there,but yet he had lost her in the middle of the crowd just having to see a girl from behind with blonde hair.

'It's definitely not her' he ridiculed himself of having to chase all this while without any reason some stranger,'she dint have blonde hair!' and shrugged of the thought,and he had nearly given up searching just when a beautiful coincidence waited to happen!

It was one Sunday afternoon,and she stood at the last place on the list,the Eiffel Tower foreground.Thoughts filled her head,about being irrevocably in love with him.She had never judged her profound connection with him,yet she was her now,with one last hope she let go off bundles of balloons in the air.

The balloons rose slowly up in the clear sky,when a man seated on the nearby park bench, reading newspaper by the lake,saw the reflection of it in the still water.

He instantly walked up following the direction and then he saw her,finally! It was her,standing there,she hadn't changed a bit,except for she had colored her hair blonde.





He walked up right behind her,and whispered,"Hey!"

Her heart fluttered at the familiar voice.It was the only one she had waited this long to hear.She turned to face him and threw her arms around embracing him in a tight hug.

In the middle of profusion and all the noise of the people at the park,suddenly it was all quiet for a long moment,just the thud of her heart hammering,the broken rhythm of their ragged breathing,and the whisper of their lips moving in synchronization.

She looked at his shinning,triumphant eyes and knew that they had won.Because nothing else mattered now,she had found him.He watched a tear which had been eagerly waiting at the brink of her eye roll down when she blinked.And he softly whispered,
"Seeing you still takes my breath away!"

She tried to comprehend,through the films of tears blinding her,the surreal fact that this amazing person was here with her,at this moment,and that finally she had found him.

'He is mine',she thought,it seemed the frayed strands of her life was ready to heal and knit back together.She couldn't describe,she just felt ecstatic about finding him and living that moment full length.

His hands reached up and cradled her face,delicately and they kissed again.

"Why did you leave me and go? Do you know how much I have missed you?" she complained.

"I know but it was for the good." he replied.

"Good! what good would it do to me without you around?" she questioned.

"Remember the night at the beach? our last day before college."

"Yes I remember!"she remarked.

"That day when I looked into your eyes,I not only saw the girl I loved,but I did see the girl who was dependent on me,completely.I dint want you to lose the person you actually are in between."

She quietly listened to him.

"I wanted you to discover yourself.You have always been guarded from any harm,you have always been treated to feel special.Living in Hampton,High school,having me always around had build up you then.

You dint know the world.It isn't simple,and then one day you would find out that the real world doesn't care so much about who you were in high school.I dint want that for you.I wanted you to stand up for yourself.I wanted the world to know she isn't a dependent person.That there is so much more to her.

And for you to start over I had to leave.Because me being around would never let you be the real person!"

"But....." before she could say further he spoke again.

"I would have come back,but the decision of you choosing me would not be because you have known me all long,I wanted you to live your life,know people,and then decide if you still wanted me.I wanted to be that choice of yours.

But somewhere in my head something told me that you would come find me,and I would know then we are actually meant to be together."

"Weirdo! Did you think I ever doubted it? You and Me, never! I knew you are my zing,my soul mate.
But you are right,maybe it was tough without you,but now that I really understood,I love you more for that." she declared.

"I love you too,always have!"

"You know what,the night before I left for Paris,I had asked Mom something,and she had said I would know.Now I have realized what she had meant by that,there wasn't anything to forgive on the first place.People who love us,never really make mistake,they do things that's best for us only that we don't realize it then!"she explained.

The next couple of months they spend with each other,cherishing their new life,rediscovering their love altogether.

And one September Morning,in Hampton,Mrs.Roe gets a call.She had just 'Congratulated' someone on the other end before she hung up.And then she turned to wake up Mr.Roe to give the news.There was a breathtaking smile of exultation and her eyes gleaming which he easily reciprocated and hugged her,overjoyed with the news .

At the same time,in Paris the two lovebirds were leaving from a restaurant waiting to hail a taxi,while on the backdrop a signboard just placed outside the restaurant read:

'From Paris With Love'.

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Many years later,a young girl in her twenties,had just finished with giving her speech at the inaugural conference of her new book which has recently been published and had been signing at her desk.When two ladies in their fifties walked over and asked,
"Can we get our copies signed too?"

She looked up gazing through her turquoise eyes,blissful and delighted to see them.

"Oh My Gawd! Aunt Camilla ,Aunt Ruby! So good to see you!" she exclaimed and hugged, "Mum and Dad will be very happy to see you!"

And the trio sat down to chat.While at the exit,a reader opened his copy and read the author signed page and smiled.

..............THE END? (winks)..............

Quoted: True Love waves the magic wand into the lives of people.It touches every life,but not all feel it.Its all in there,if only you believe in yourself,if you can do that,you can make anything happen.

Because some fates are guaranteed,no matter who tries to intervene.Is it any less than Magic?

Special Mention: I just want to say Sabyasachi Shome,my brother that, "Thank You for Everything!"

From Paris With Love!

Chapter Five

"I got an idea!" Ruby squawked tugging at Camilla's shoulder.

"Oh God! Ruby its 4 in the morning..cant it wait?" Camilla replied irritated and sleepy.

"No, of course it cant!" Ruby said adamantly.

Camilla had to give in and sitting up on her bed in her footie pajamas,rubbing her eyes,and followed by Raquel doing the same.

"It better be good!"Camilla warned.

"Good! its so underrated,its actually Incredible!" She chirped.

"Okay spit it out now" Raquel spoke softly.

"We were planning to go on a vacation,right? How about if we all go to my place,Australia?" Ruby questioned,staring straight at both of them eagerly for the answer.

Camilla and Raquel exchanged looks.

"Oh c'mon now! Its gonna be fun" Ruby assured "and moreover if you guys are thinking about accommodation lemme tell you,my step dad is a really nice man,he would do all the arrangements for us,we would just have to travel and enjoy! how bad is it?"

"Okay..." they both replied in unison.

"Perfect!" Ruby exclaimed.

The next day they purchased three tickets to Melbourne and soon after traveled.

Mr and Mrs.Walters,Ruby's parents welcomed them with open arms.They were a couple so in Love,and Mrs.Walters,a caring,loving,soft spoken person which was just opposite to what Ruby was with her kinky,naughty,loud and mischievous nature.

But Ruby's being so good at heart part was undoubtedly from them.Though Mr. Walters was Ruby's step father,but he dint seem to be one.He just loved her like his own blood.Camilla and Raquel were moved to see the bonding between them.

The next couple of days were spent,visiting different places,walking over Griffiths Island and the Port Fairy,a coastal town and the lighthouse there was a spectacular scene,then lighting a bonfire and spending silent moment under the night sky bought back the memories of Hampton.Raquel felt nostalgic and happy that she took the trip,it was real pleasure meeting the amazing family and staying with them.

It was a bag full of memories that the three would cherish for lifetime.And the best thing was knowing these amazingly beautiful people and that love existed so strongly was just indescribable!

Back in Paris,after the incredible vacation,life of the three bestie seemed to go on normal.Except for dancing in the street,when it had suddenly down poured heavily one afternoon.And as a result,had to skip office hours after the lunch time.Other than that everyday was usual.

Long after,one night Ruby and Camilla watched through the window a sweet,handsome looking guy drop off Raquel home.

"So who was that?" Ruby mischievously asked "Boyfriend?"

"Oh! That's Matt and no,we both are just friends.We were in the same internship program and now he works at the same office.And he just came here to drop me off,that's it!" Raquel replied folding her clothes and arranging her stuff.

"So you are telling me,there's nothing between the two of you!" Ruby winked at Camilla.

"Yes! Nothing." Raquel clarified.

"So I can take him,right?" Ruby screamed with joy but was suddenly cut off by Camilla saying "What about Ben then?"

"What about him?" Ruby snarled and tossed a cushion towards her.

"Okay why don't we invite him to join us tomorrow?" Camilla suggested.

"See there you go girl...you simply know what I want.Its gonna be a fun night,totally!" she assured and winked again.

"Whats tomorrow?" Raquel questioned

"Its our boozy's birthday!" Camilla excitedly replied and the night passed discussing as to who will wear what for the night.

It was hell of a celebration and Matt had joined them too ,dancing,laughing,chatting and drinking.After they had finished,all of them headed out,but Raquel and Matt were asked to spend some time and the two girls then left off.

At first Raquel had disagreed but when the three other had insisted,she had to give in.She had thought 'just a walk' and finally had agreed.

They walked down a street and into a nearby park.It was quiet and empty except for the sound of soft humming of the birds.They sat on a wooden bench and Matt spoke,"Your friend Ruby,hell of a girl! but she is fun to hang out with."

"Yes! she is an imp in disguise" She laughed.

"Really had great time.You are lucky to have such great friends!" he remarked.

"Yes indeed,staying away from home,they are my family in here!" she replied softly.

The night was calm in its own tranquility and the water in the lake seem to glisten in the moonlight and the velvety purple flower petals scattered around made the night even more beautiful.Just like the ones every poet craves to write about.

Matt looked at her and softly mumbled,"You look beautiful" and he softly clasped her hand and got little closer.

Raquel sat in silence and felt the touch of his warm hand on hers.He inched closer to her when she suddenly let go off his hand,"I can't do this!" and saying this she ran away towards the exit.

He followed her and without another word,they got into a taxi and headed to her apartment.None of them spoke until the taxi had come to a halt.They both got off and she hastily headed for the doorknob to avoid any further conversation,when he suddenly spoke,"I'm sorry!" he apologized.

Raquel turned to look at him,because somewhere deep down she too felt she had to apologize for how she had behaved back at the park.It all had happened so suddenly and she hadn't had time to think about it,but behaving that way wasn't the right thing to do,she knew.

But before she could say anything,he said,"Raquel! you are a very nice person.Though I haven't known you long enough,but I did see the person you are.And I really liked that person,and maybe what happened at the park was because of how I had started to feel about you." he sighed "I do know.....now,that you don't feel the same,but that's okay...I just hope you get what you are looking for!"

Then he kissed her and walked away.

She took one last glance at him go and she whispered to herself "Goodbye my friend!" and stepped in.

......................to be continued.......................