Mirror! Mirror! On the Wall

I've spent too many days,
Staring into the mirror on the wall,
Which only magnifies the imperfection back to my smiling face..

I've spent too many night,
covering my tears and pain,
With a blanket made of laughter and lies..

I've spent too much time,
Stepping up onto a scale,
only to measure my inability to
succeed at the smallest goal..

I've spent almost 18 years,
Living in this world,
And just now I'm beginning to wonder,
If I've ever really lived at all

But then it changed for a moment while,
Filled me up with the beautiful taste of life,
I got swayed,
I was stupid,
Oblivion to the fact,that after every sunshine,
There is a silent darkness crawling up high..